The other day, I was driving around in our ridiculously overpowered family car, listening to some Soundgarden and it got me to thinking about the path I’ve taken during my lifetime. I almost had a Talking Heads moment of “well, how did I get here?”. I can’t imagine that when I was 19 or so and originally listening to this music I would have thought my life would turn out the way it has.
Then I started wondering what I would have thought at age 19 if I met my current self. Would I have nodded approvingly and said “yeah, that dude’s got it going ON”? Or would I have instead shaken my head and thought “man, what a tool, what’s he trying to prove?”
I took my question to my loving wife and she asked, “would you really put any stock into what 19 year old you had to say?”. Whereas I am sure 19 year old me had good taste, I guess since I don’t really care what most people think (that sounds a lot more harsh than I mean it), I probably wouldn’t.
Ultimately I think the question becomes whether or not my ideas as to what makes a good life have changed over the years. Certainly there are aspects that have changed dramatically. The importance I place on family being chief among them. When it comes down to it, I guess we all probably have aspects of our world view that stick with us for years to come.
On reflection, I seem to have settled into a particular groove around 26 or 27. Luckily that groove included a classic dress style of jeans and black t-shirts that have always been around, so I don’t really feel out of place. I’m still finding new music to listen to (Duffy, Psapp, TV on the Radio) while keeping my favorites from earlier in my life (Soundgarden, The Cure, Faith No More, Prince) in regular circulation.
I’m guessing this is part of what evolving as a person is about. You find the things that worked in the past and mix those in with new tricks.
I know, quite the ramble, but it’s been on my mind for a couple weeks now.